Hi there! I am taking a huge risk and truthfully being very vulnerable with you by sharing this post. I am participating in a 6 month experiment, the e-mail below is part of that experiment. The idea behind the experiment is to ask yourself the question, “What would you do, how would you live your life different if you knew you only had 6 months left to live“. The e-mail is to a new friend who has inspired me, and as part of my 6 month story I wanted to share just that with her. I hope that you can see where I am coming from, please feel free to comment or better yet, join me!
Hi Jacqueline,I want to begin by telling you I have about 20 things on my “task list” that I should be doing right now, but because of the 6 month experiment I have decided that everything else can wait until I get through with this e-mail to you. This may take a few moments so before reading on you may want to set aside some time. 😉I am a spiritual person and I believe that God has ordained certain things to take place at specific times in our lives, and that we all have a purpose in this world. I also think that I could possibly be like the Isarealites and am prone to wander for nearly 40 years. I am from the school of hard knocks. I say that because about 5 years ago I felt a calling to help women and girls. While I was completely caught off guard, I was really humbled and I believe God confirmed this calling in several extraordinary ways that still blow me away when I think of them. But then life happened, I made some stupid choices ones that I will have to live with for the rest of my life. Regardless, they were a distraction and moved me to places I never imagined that I would go. Yet looking back I also learned lessons that I never knew I needed to learn.You might be wondering what does this have to do with you. Glad you asked!! Almost a year ago I really had this desire, drive , hunger, feeling, I’m not really sure how to describe it but I just knew that 2013 was going to bring something BIG for me. In saying that I also had an annoying whisper telling me that I needed to begin to blog. What you may not know is that for the previous two years I had been working on a project developing circulium for an online learning institute, where I was told that I was not meeting the organization’s standard in regard to my writing skills. Though I had been told by several people who I admire that I am a very unique and gifted writer. So, when this whisper wouldn’t go away I accepted the challenge half hearted, with the excuses that people would be critical, if they would read at all and of course I needed a cool name for a blog. Which is what kept me from writing. In April I came up with Dragonfly Direction, which is another story in its self for another time. Then I met Kola at a local networking meeting who took away my excuse about not knowing how to blog.Thus my blogging journey began in July where I also learned about Stiletto day. I know that I still have a lot to learn but so many things have been falling into place for this business to launch which happens to be what I am and have been passionate about On stiletto day, I missed the first two speakers but as luck would have it I was able to get dialed in to your session, which was one that I was most interested in anyway. Jackie, It was like you were speaking directly to me, I felt like I was the only one on the call with you. Fear has been something I have struggled with my entire life and has been the reason for some of my poor choices. It has always held me back because there is a part of me that feels like my history with sexual abuse serves as an indicator that I am not worthy of success even though I know with every fiber of my being that I have been called to help women in such a life enriching meaningful way. Your comment, “Get comfortable with being uncomfortable” made me take a step back, and made me a little sick to my stomach, that’s fear for ya! There were many other great statements you made that day but that one really struck me.Winning a 20 minute session with you, was a HUGE turning point for me. I was at a point where that gentle whisper was making me really uncomfortable with some areas of my life, but I know that I have a higher calling. My higher calling was also making me uncomfortable because I could see it, feel it, even taste it but I had no idea what it looked like. Truth be told I was also scared, that fear thing again. I know that I come far both personally and professionally given that I dropped out of high school at age 16 to have my son. Though I did get my GED and eventually graduated business school, there are people out there who try to intimidate me in to feeling like I am not enough. But again, I know that I am so much more, it’s just really hard to explain sometimes. Maybe it’s just that I know the truth about me. I am not defined by my past and I may not have gone to a four year institution but I have lived life and my experiences speak loudly.So that is just a tiny glimpse into some of my story, which now also includes you. Again, your words ring true in my ears, but more importantly in my heart, “When the student is ready the teacher appears”. Thank you for appearing. Here we are at the end of 2013 and this has been an extraordinary year already. I am facing my fears and I am ready to launch Dragonfly Direction with my first course that will take place on January 18th, “Intentional Living and Introspective Look”. While, I am terrified that no one will come, I remind my self that this is not about me, I need to have faith and trust that all of the experiences I have had in my life are for a reason and the people that have made an imprint on me has been intentional.Not only did you help to get me back on the right path, but you have pushed me, inspired me and now you have challenged me with the 6 month experiment. Thank you! I always have so much on my plate and try to get a of things done, that other can help me complete. Rather, I need to focus on the things that I can uniquely bring to make the world a better place, to women who truly need it. In the spirit of the 6 month experiment, I choose to spend my time telling you how much I appreciate you, your passion, your inspiration and your willingness to be bold, fearless. I am terrified of what this next 6 months will bring but I give you my word that I am going to commit, I am going to be open and accept the victories that come my way because I have something important to share with women around the world,, my message of resilience and hope. Sorry that this was so long, but it is part of my 6 month story. :-)”