Messages often come to me through the strangest places. This week the U.S. celebrated Valentines Day. I am currently on a vision quest, thus I was celebrating the love holiday on my own. (My husband, Tim made sure to honor the holiday before I set off on my journey.) On Valentine’s night, I was watching a movie. Oftentimes, I watch a movie I’ve already seen. The magical thing is that I discover new things with each viewing. Can you relate or am I the only one who watches re-runs?
There’s something about watching movies that allows me to surrender. The movie selection the Universe brought to my attention, Something’s Gotta Give. If you haven’t seen I totally recommend this flick. There’s a part in the movie where the mother, now in her 50’s is telling her 20’s something daughter about dating and love. There’s an exchange where the daughter is explaining that she’s too scared of getting hurt, so she won’t allow herself to fall in love or get too attached.
Have you ever been in that space? Why is it that we set limitations on ourselves as a protection mechanism? Does it ever really work? During the dialogue in the movie the mother shared how allowing herself to be vulnerable and open to love is one of the best parts of life. She said to her daughter, “What are you waiting for?”
When was the last time you asked yourself that very question? About a year ago I knew that I was supposed to go on this vision quest that I’m currently exploring. I kept putting it off, setting my own limitations and I tried to hide from my own intution. Funny thing though, no matter how much and how hard we try to hide from ourselves, our soul knows what it knows and so do we.
When it’s all said and done I’ll be away from my family, with very limited contact, for 20 days. At 40 years old, this is the longest I’ve ever been on my own. While I knew when I was going to depart and when I would return, the messy middle is what scared the living daylights out of me. Yet, it’s in the messy middle that we experience the true beauty in all of life.
Right now I’m truly in sacred space and am not ready to share a whole lot of what this journey is teaching me. The right time will come soon and I’ll be happy to share more at that time. What I do what to share as a reminder to you is this very simple statement, trust your intuition. What are you waiting for?
Over the past year my life has been very messy. I was afraid, ashamed and confused. As I take the final step toward my own wholeness, I keep asking myself the same question, “What were you waiting for?” Truth is we could save ourselves and the people we love, a lot of emotional pain and heartache if we would simply learn to be present, live without limitation, and trust that our higher self will take care of the rest. It’s time to jump and soar into, onto the next chapter.